June 27, 09

June 27, 2009 a date i would never forget. as everyone aware it is my birthday but that is not what its all about. Yes i will talk about my birthday but that will be later. hehe. laughter, joy, love and bonding were what we all manage to achieve that very day. June 27, 2009 was also the date where my youngest aunt, Aida got engage. The engagement was a success but the preparation was hat tic! everyone was practically running around and things were practically flying around too! i remember there was a time where we were all so busy chasing the time i saw a hair brush flying over my head. god! that was really close to a head shoot. kids were screaming mums were screaming so was the maids. haha! but above all that we still manage to put our best outfit and our best behaviour to welcome our new family. we all greet them with respect and warmness hoping that they would feel comfortable being in our home. after the main ceremony was done it was time for picture taking. that's another hilarious part. just so u know my family especially my aunts love fame and attention in that matter picture taking section was the highlight of the day. many kind of poses were pose by them. from nice and innocent to Cleopatra dramatic pose were delivered. even though my birthday wasnt the usual(parties and stuff) but i still manage to have great fun. and it satisfy my that june 27 meant something to other person in my family beside than its my birthday.
p/s: congrats to Aida & Azhar on their engagement. hope ur wedding are not this stressful. hehe

welcome back

oh my god it has been ages since i last wrote. so here i am welcoming my self back to writing. if thats ok with u all.
well i had just finished reading all my older post and realized on how far i've came from who i was before. i am now 17 and time has truly past by really fast. i still remember when i wrote my first blog. and that was 3 years back. reading all of it has truly make me realize that its time for me to write back again. and this time i'll talk about something that matters. talking about stuff may seem easy but writing it in ways for others to understand ur true meaning isnt. here i am pushing my self to the limit where others are able to understand what i truly meant and how my feeling was even when the blog is 10 lines long. i have to admit i miss writing and yes i've stop writing but that doesnt mean i stop writing for good. so here i am informing u guys that im back and i will start writing again in ways none of us could ever imagine(afraid its not good). till then have a good day....

why is this happening?

Before you guys read this blog any further I would like to inform you guys that this story is based on true event which me my self went through. But there we some point and dialog has been change to protect the innocent. This story is written in order to let you guys know that no matter how hard it is there is always a way to over come it and life does have to move on…. "Why is this happened? Why is this happening to me?" said Hanna. As she was crying for the lost of her love one, Jake. Jake met with an accident that night while he was on the phone with Hanna while driving and he died on his way to the hospital. It was a big shock for everyone. None of us ever expect of loosing him this soon. As he was the one who always make us laugh. Loosing him was really hard. Hanna was crying at her best friend, Sarah while they were sitting at the hospital lobby. The lobby was full with reporters, friends and family that night. It was a long hard night for everyone. The next day, it was time to burry Jake's body and to say our last goodbye. It was hard for us to say our last goodbye to our beloved friend. But it was harder for Hanna to say her last goodbye to the person she has been in love with for the past 6 years. "No more walking at the park together. No more talking on the phone for hours. No more eating ice-cream on Sundays. No more hearing him calling me his demanding princess," cried Hanna to Sarah. Sarah immediately burst into tears when she heard what Hanna said. The shocking death of her love one could break her into a million pieces. It was hard and Hanna would have to go thru a lot of obstacles to over come it. Four months pass by and Hanna is still in the same condition as she was when Jake first died. She is still in deep pain and cant moved on. Hanna keep herself grounded in her apartment and only went out when she run out of food supplies. Sarah felt really bad for her and tried to bring her out for lunch or movie sometimes. But nothing has worked. For quite some while Sarah didn't know what to say to Hanna. She was afraid that she might be saying the wrong thing and may hurt her deeper. All she was able to give Hanna was a blank look with nothing came out from her mouth. Not even a single word. Every time Hanna cries Sarah felt useless. As she doesn't know what to say or do just to make Hanna feel better. She is still the same. "I want my old Hanna back. The happy go lucky Hanna. The one I used to have lots of fun and laughs with. Can I have her back please?" said Sarah as she suddenly burst with tears. All this while of silent actually break into a sound that Sarah herself never thought of hearing. "That Hanna is long gone! How could I be happy when Jake is no longer by my side? He is my happiness. And now my happiness has went away and leave me for good", Hanna said with tears falling down her check. Sarah couldn't say no more. She understands the pain of her best friend is going thru. As Jake was Hanna's first love. That night Hanna had a dream. In her dreams she met with Jake again. And this time Jake said something to Hanna. "Hanna my dear, why are you so sad now days? I can hardly see your beautiful smile that I love to see. And your adorable laugh that I love to hear. Where have all that went to baby?" asked Jake. "I can only smile and laugh when you are with me darling. And now you're gone how could I ever smile and laugh again?" replied Hanna. "Only my presence is no longer with you my dear. But my spirit and my love will always are with you", said Jake and his reflections fade away. And Hanna woke up from her dreams. She immediately called Sarah and told Sarah everything. Sarah quickly came to Hanna's apartment and took her out for breakfast. They chatted about how life going to be after this. And Hanna is going to start too moved on and will always be in love with her Jake who calls her his 'demanding princess'…

me and my mum

hey there! well im writing about me and my mum this time. i know its weird but hey what do i care! its a blog right? so i cant crap about anything i want to in here. to whom havent meet my mum let me give u a simple briefing of how and who she is. simple say mum going to be mum. but in my situation she sometimes doesnt only act as a mum. she is also my bestfriend. we do argue a lot. we do fight. and we also do the silent treatment. but we also bitch about other ppl, went shopping together, hang at the coffee hse n etc. bottom line shes my everything. i
t wasnt like this before. we wasnt this close before. i used to hate havng her around just like normal teenagers do. but when i start staying home a lot and spent more time with her, i started to see her in another point of view.
obviously i was force to spent time with her at first. but when time past by me myself cant wait to hang with her.
u guys must find this hard to believe but when i started to actually listen to what she actually saying i find it true. every single word that came out from her mouth. so now days i went to her for advise on anything. i mean ANYTHING. including BOYS issues.
we make an agreement where we can talk or do anything we want without crossing the line. if i crossed the line then she will start acting like a mum la. obviously!!
most of my friends doesnt have probs hanging with my mum too. they say that shes cool. but i dont find it that way. hehe. well maybe because i doesnt want to admit it.
my mum is the worst match maker in history of match making! she promised to find me a boyfriend a really good one. but till now she havent intro me to anyone at all. and i already found a nice one. thanks to my beloved Abg Dim. argh!! he so cute!!! enough about that.
well everybody have their pros and cons. but my mum cover her cons really good. she is able to make ppl think that she is capable of doing anything which she actually dont. its so cute u see when she always come to me for help. this is her line

"girl...erm blh tlg mama tak? nnt kite pegi la makan k? tp u tlg la mama dlu..plss girl.."

with a cute face expression. mentang2 la she knows that i nie mmg suke mkn bodek i dgn makanan. hantu btul! hehe.
she also have a great taste on fashion and beauty. so she is the one who teach me how to dress and make up. so if any of u guys find me to have a sense of style that is all from her. so thanks to her.
but from all the thing she thought me theres this one thing i will never forget. she said

"girl, dlm sekelip mate je everything ure hvng now tuhan could take it away. so pls appreciate it and never take advantage of it."

theres is also another thing she thought me was

"girl, jgn sekali pon u sombong dgn org. wather they are rich or poor be friendly to all. eventhough we have everything and they have nothing kite ttp kene respect dieorg as a human being. mcm2 yg kite blh blaja from the hard life. so jgn sombong dgn org."

that are the best lesson that she thought me. from there i learnt a lot of things. i able to make friends from all stage of life. the rich and the poor. honestly i prefer to hang with the poor better than the rich because they dont bangge about them self too much.
i think i better stop here. tangan dh penat mengetaip nie. otak pon dh kering dok perah nie. what im trying to say here is
I FREAKING LOVE MY MUM! AND I LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH HER! live with it people!!! hehehe.. askum..

love at first sight

Does love at first sight really exist? I do believe in love and that every human being is entitled to find their soul mate and live happily ever after. But I dont really believe in love at first sight. It just doesnt make any sense to me. How could you love a person you just met and how could you be sure that person is the one for you with just one look? It didnt make any sense to me until...

I went to Terengganu to visits my grandparents and relatives there during the school break. I was dreadfully bored there, spending most of my time sleeping, watching TV, or just staring at the wall, and whenever I left the house, people would look and stare at me, just because Im a city girl just because Im different.

One night I was force by my beloved mother to go out and accompany my aunt to a shop nearby. So I decided to get my lazy ass off the chair to follow her. At the shop, I sat by the large window to stare outside at the streets of the countryside. While I was gazing at the shop, I laid eyes on the most adorable, cutest, sweetest face I had ever laid my eyes on. He caught my eyes and looked into them. Unconsciously, I smile at him and he returns it with a sly smile. I was so deep in a trance that I didn’t notice my aunt call my name. She shook me and told us we were going. As we walked out, heading back home, our eyes met once more.

2 days passed by, and all I could think of, was that lovely face. There was a night market going on nearby my house on the second day after I saw him. I went there with nina, my lil cousin to have a look around. While I was walking through the stalls there, I noticed that face again. And once again, our eyes met. That same sly, sweet smile came to his lips, and he waved at me. I waved back and smiled back at him, though I had to admit, I was a little nervous so my smile was not all too perfect. After a while of just glancing at each other, he decides to come up to me and start a conversation. The conversation was short and simple. But I just could not help my self from staring at him. He said something sweet, and I turned away to hide my blushing face. He left me that night with his number, and he with mine. We went for a drink at a mall close by, and we had a pleasant time together. Even though it was a short time, it felt like forever, and I enjoyed every moment of it. A spark grew within me that day, and it grew within his as well, but our bliss was to be cut short.

It was time for me to go back home in shah alam. We promised each other that we will meet again soon. Only time would tell if we would still have that spark. We still keep in touch now. On the 22nd of March something unexpected thing happened. After hearing me singing my fav song (I love u by Barney and friends) we decided to hang up.Before he hangs up he says 3 of the most cunning and powerful words in the English language "I love you". When I heard it, it struck me like a blow, and my blood started rushing "is it really true could it?" Those were the thoughts running through my mind. I sent him a message, asking if what he said was true. He repeats the same words and my heart flew. He began to tell me of how he had loved me from the second he laid eyes on me. And of how his love grew with every passing moment so I guess love at first sight does exist. Hmm...

friendship

Friendship is a relationship where it was born from two or more amount of people being together as a friend. They started with being friends. But later when they realize that their friend meant something in their life and they don't want to loose them, there where the friendship is born.

Friendship is a small word with a deep meaning. To have this friendship flows within you and your friend there are some qualities and sacrifices that are need to be done. There a quote by Quarius says 'as there is no worldly gain without some loss; so there is no worldly loss without some gain'. Meaning we need to make sacrifices in order to get what we want. This is what it takes to have a friendship.

Some friendship last forever and some don't. Having a true friendship that last forever are equals to have a pot of gold in front of you. This is the kind of gold that are invisible but you could be able to feel the richness of it. To some this may be hard to understand but once you feel it you'll understand it by the second.

Let's have a situation where you could understand better of what I mean by true friendship. I have a friend whom I known since primary school. We used to hate each other a lot. But after a while, the hate within us changes to love of friends. She was there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on. She was there with me when my life shines the brightest sky. She was there with me when nobody else could. She understands what I'm trying to say just by looking into my eyes. Her advice wasn't that good, but she still gave me one when times needed.

To have a friend like her meant a lot to me. Having a friendship like this are priceless to me. All this could be earned by anybody. Whether the rich or the poor, the common man or the brilliant thinker, the humble or the proud. To have this, all you need in yourself is to have the courage and the sincere of having a true friendship. With this there will be no problem for you to have a true friendship in your life soon.

True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it be lost. – Charles Caleb Colton

i love you (poem)

I'll be here for you.... this is my word i swear to you.
when you breath.... i want to be the air for you.
when you look.... i want to be there in front of you.
i live and die for you.
i sleep and walk for you.
I'll steal the moon for you if i have too.
I'll cross oceans to meet you.
words can say what love can do
but words cant describe the way i feel for you.
i hope these words are enough to describe
that i love you...